being sullen & every fucking thing in between

and btw, i almost forgot







Happy Halloween dweebs!

photo courtesy of flickr.com

err... so...







i went on a pigging out spree at sakura the other night with my sister & her hubby (his treat btw coz it's his birthday). basically it's a buffet restaurant, and for S$25 a person, you can eat all you want and stay till you want. so not bad, right? ok. here's the thing, i've never felt stuffed, bloated, queasy and nauseated all at once in my entire life. seriously. the feeling was just terrible! it's the stupidest thing to keep on stuffing your piehole with food and munching every tiny bit of morsel away when you're fully aware that you've done your limit. but i was there to make the most of the buffet price, which is not a good idea at all! so anyways, i say NO TO BUFFET RESTAURANTS! NEVER AGAIN!

on another front, i went out with a friend lastnight and had dinner at Carl's Jr.
around 4am this morning i was awaken by my grumbling stomach calling for the crapper. since then i've been on & off the toilet 5 times. that's all i'm saying.:(

this is what i get from being such a foodwhore.

082108 15.35
dispensary

I've always had a fondness of staring at my patients (w/ a special citing for the geriatric kind) whenever they take their meds. Other than the conventional, I never knew in my 22 yrs of existence that there are so many ways on how to take a medicine especially for the tablets and capsule form.

An example of which is a patient of mine that mimics a bird.

Turning his mouth to a beak & takes his tablets one at a time from his hands.

Another would appear to be imitating a lizard, a komodo to be specific with its elongated tongue plus the drooling saliva. Just one rapid tongue reflex... swoosh... medication gone from the face of the palm.

Hayay, old people... they never fail to amuse me.

(something i randomly wrote from my journal yesterday)

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Anywhoos, as I was panning my journal for old entries out of nothing to do, I came across these:

073108 01.08
kwarto

...and how can you avoid people that can't just get a grip & have a fuck with life. There are just certain people that are so dumb that you have to stoop down to their level just to stress your point. I dunno, blame it on society or the pussies they came out from, whichever the case, it's just abrasive & I only have much of a threshold to fucking deal with it.

Which brings me about my much-hyped 'interpersonal skills'.

It's a rarity that you'll be seeing me around talking to people - it's always been the case. Either they initiated the conversation & I was forced to talk or it is one of those handful circumstances that I have to say something just to break the awkwardness of silence (w/c tends to be unsuccessful in most cases btw). I prefer staying in my own niche, away from people.

Less talk, less mistake.

And I'm satisfied with what is there in my own little world.
A friend even once said, 'Have you ever thought it's weird that you're a nurse & you're not conversant at all?' Come to think about it, he's right. It's the strangest thing that I employ myself in a profession that needed basically people with motor mouths & goddam rapport with people. In the field that depends heavily from nurse-patient relationship to meet a positive prognosis, there I am struggling to even introduce myself to my patient. Call it dumb call it stupid or whatevs but it's just the way it is. As much as I'd want to build up my cred, it's been fucked up ever since.

But as of now, this 'handicap'haven't got me in trouble
... yet.
Or made me lose my job
... yet.

So I'm cool.


072608 12.40
kwarto

I hardly make new friends. Altho recently I've been trying to open up to the consequences of meeting people in the hope that I could grow comfy with them. But wtf, I don't give damn if I don't. For me, it's pointless to make new friends when you feel that nobody can beat the ones you have now.

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It's my day-off btw. So that explains it. :)

I fucking hate my face!!!!! gaaaahh